40 years and counting…

Good morning all. As I sit here writing this, I can’t help but to watch the clock, waiting for midnight, for October 2nd to roll over into October 3rd. Why? No, not for my break time (I work nights). The reason is simple:

On October 3rd, I will forever leave my 30’s behind. Yep, that’s right, I will join the group of 40 year olds.

By the time you read this, you will no longer be reading a blog post written by a 39 year old woman but from a 40 year old woman.

Big difference? Maybe….

There are those familiar sayings about a person turning forty. You know the ones:

  • Over the hill
  • Your life is half over
  • One foot in the grave
  • It’s all downhill from here

They go on and on. Now I’m not going to lie. Turning 40 makes me feel a tad bit depressed. I mean, I have been alive and on this Earth for 40 years and I don’t know, I just thought I would have done more with my time.

BUT….

I refuse to dig myself into a pit of despair about all of the things I have not done or the places I’ve never been. Instead, I want to think about everything I have experienced in my last 40 years.

1. I didn’t finish high school

BUT…

I got my G.E.D.

2. I worked on a stinky chicken farm

BUT…

I met my best friend in the whole world

3. Unfortunately I had to quit college

BUT…

I have a very good paying job

WITH…

A great partner

4. I got married…and divorced

BUT…

I met and married my soul mate

5. I didn’t have the twins I always wanted

BUT…

I did have two beautiful children

AND…

became a step mom to another beautiful child

6. I’m not living in some million dollar mansion

BUT…

I did purchase an even better, cozy, loving home with my wonderful husband

7. I didn’t get on become a NY Times Bestsellers List or sign a movie deal based on my books (YET…)

BUT…

I did become a published author!

P.S. The 3rd full length book in The Perfect Order series is in the early stages…

So, to sum it all up:

I may not have accomplished everything I wanted to in the way I wanted to…

And I may not have “The Perfect Life”…

But what I have accomplished is amazing to me

And what I do have, the LIFE I have, is perfect for me.

Thanks for stopping by my blog today. Enjoy!

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Having Trouble Writing? Me Too

Good morning everyone. As you read this, I am just getting off of work and headed home to get kids up for school and then try to get some sleep.
Now that I’m working nights, the parts of the day are totally switched up. More than that, I’m totally falling behind on things that need done. Mainly my writing and my blogging. I’m still trying to figure out how to multi-task. But that’s one part of a life of an author.

First, I love being an author. I have always wanted to write. Ever since I was a child, that has been my dream. And now I am finally published. The problem? Trying to finish book two. It has taken waaaay too long and I am beginning to seriously doubt that I have the right stuff to, well write.

The reasons I’m behind? To name a few:

1. Family Time

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I can not express the importance of family. Kids grow up so fast and time flies by like it is going out of style. So time with your loved ones is not to be overlooked. But sometimes, just sometimes, it would be nice to just be alone long enough to get a few

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Because I’m so behind and my characters aren’t talking to my sleep infused brain, I am having some serious doubts. Doubts which involve if I am really meant to be a writer. I mean, I LOVE to write but if it is taking me this long (almost 2 years :() to finish book two, then do I really have to right stuff to write? Am I really good

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Sometimes I just lack the motivation to get going. I mean, I have the imagination and the want to but between finding the time to write  and sleep and life, I just can’t get myself moving. I think need a swift kic

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6. Excuses

Everything above is an excuse. Logical and actual things but excuses all the same. In short, if I want to be an author, then I am going to have to do it.  For in my writing when and however I can. Stop doubting myself and realize that I can be whatever I want. Even if takes longer than I hope or want.

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Thanks for stopping by. Enjoy!